You know, I’ve been thinking a lot lately about various things writerly and I was recently emailed and asked about what I thought on the whole Kiss of Death plagiarism scandal thingy. My first response was “oh crap another one?”
If you haven’t heard by now, a former member of the Kiss of Death chapter of RWA was caught out on plagiarizing other people’s books. Her first excuse was that she put the book in the wrong folder on her computer and accidentally thought it was her’s. O-kay. I’ve misplaced my copy of BabyCakes Makes the Classics a few times but when I found it I’ve never suddenly thought I was an allergen free baker and had just forgotten it. Next, she got caught with more plagiarizing and she came clean. Admitted to being a thief, resigned her position with KOD and RWA and slunk away, losing a lot of people’s respect and probably quite a bit of her own.
So why does this matter? And why does it affect you? Or me? We don’t plagiarize. We know better (If you don’t nod along and take notes—stealing other people’s work is bad). But it got me thinking about someone I knew in grad school who did get caught plagiarizing. An entire dissertation. Possibly a more stupid act than an author plagiarizing a book. Why? 1.) Because academic departments are really small groups of people. Really small groups of people. And they read each other’s work. So you can’t get away with stealing someone else’s stuff. You will get caught. Quickly. 2.) It’s a career killer. Ten years of college, down the tubes. Hundreds of thousands of dollars gone. And no chance of ever coming back from it because you are now persona non grata in the academic scene. In academia plagiarism is like murdering a child, mutilating them and then doing weird satanic rites with the body parts. One of those things you can’t come back from. EVER.
I remember asking this person as they were packing up their stuff and leaving in disgrace: Why? You had to know you were going to get caught. So why?
Their response? Because it was very very big and very very scary and I just sort of froze and all I could think was What If I Failed? What If I Couldn’t Do It?
And I think that’s the thing we don’t tell ourselves as authors or new authors getting into the game. Writing is a scary job. You are putting a very real piece of yourself out there for people to not only see but to judge. And occasionally you are going to fail and oh God it’s going to hurt. And it will hurt all the worse when it comes from a friend.
I know, I’ve been there. I recently submitted what I thought was a great contemporary novel to my editor—who I adore—and she came back and said ‘eh, maybe not. Let’s give it a really big revision and then try again.’ I was crushed. Destroyed. Ate two pints of Ben and Jerry’s in my pity party. Then I looked at what she said and realized you know what? She’s right. She saw holes I didn’t. She saw holes my beta didn’t and those holes are big enough to sink this story. Now I’m tearing it apart to start a completely new rewrite.
Is it scary? Hell yes. Because all I can think is what if this book isn’t good enough? What if I’m not good enough? But I’m rewriting it anyway and hoping for the best. Because it’s a story that lives in my heart. And that’s what we have to do as writers that is so terrifying. We have to open our hearts and let other people in. Even if we fail a time or two or a dozen.
So don’t be too harsh on those people who have been caught plagiarizing. Sure they deserve some contempt and some disgust because what they did was wrong. But at the same time have some sympathy too. Writing’s a scary job and we all have that moment where we want to flinch and hide our hearts and our stories from the big bad world. But we don’t, we make the decision to push forward. These people just made the wrong decision and now they’ll have to pay for it but I can’t help thinking that in the end they made the decision out of fear.
Be Fearless. Be Bold. To quote Dr. Who, Go Be Magnificent. You deserve it.
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